'Confused'

Ok honestly I'm kinda a person that confused of some decision that I have to make. It's easy though but I'm kinda a person that don't want to make a mistakes.
My aunt, she's a lecturer of university that I applied to. She told me that the cost that I applied it's kinda useless. I don't know how to explain but I know the reason that she told me it's good. So she suggested to me that I have to take a pre-diploma if I want to take a different cost. I think it's a good idea but only I will continue diploma a little late. But if I take diploma I'm afraid that I will not fit in. I'm still thinking about it. It just that I hope I make the right choice.

'Release Tension'

My cousin Nana back from her studies now she's practical at high school. Anyway we really close together we spent time together went to the movies and shopping. Yesterday we went to a restaurant named Seoul Garden. OMG the most worthily spending money time ever. It' s served a Korean food there. Nana and I are really crazy about Korea so we really want to go to the Seoul Garden. It only cost RM30 for a person and you can eat anything you want and you can top up many time drinks,food, and deserts. We both really eat a lot and we really enjoy our time. It served a buffet and you have to cook for yourself. You can boiled or grilled. We ate a lot we can't barely move. It's really fun spending time like that it's really release my tension. Even though I have so many problems but at the time I really enjoy it. It makes me forgot everything for little while.

'Stress"

Arghhhh what to do I'm really stress out. I didn't get my college application the only chance me to get into college is I have to apply the 2ND application for those who didn't get in the 1st choice. I hope i get the 2ND one because if I don't get I have to wait for a year for another college. I don't want to waste my year. Ohh God please help me I hope i get into college. Please make it happen everything that i want to achieve.

'Difiiculities'

I don't know what to do. Every time I try so hard and it ended up with failing. I don't know what I went wrong, I feel so guilty for let down my parents. I really want to be like my sisters and my brother. I'm scared of failing again. Every time I keep trying the results is always disappointment.Although people said that 'Failure Is The Ladder Of Success' but I don't have anymore strength to get through this anymore. I just hope that one day God will hears my prayers. I don't want to disappoint my parents anymore,eventhough they always keep cheering and supporting me eventhough i failed so many times but I want them to be proud of me and not shame of me. I wish i could turn back times and make things right. I hope they forgive me.

'Decision

Now i know how is it feel to make a 2 decision. Well is not that hard actually but I'm still confused to make the right choice. I'm just scared if i make the wrong decision then the whole thing will go upside down or turning to the wrong way. I hope this decision will be the right thing to do. I hope it's not cause anything. Well other than that I'm still working out for my plan. It takes me really long time to make it success. I hope it's enough time before i start anything. I hope it will be success. Wish me luck.

Woo! it has been so long i didn't update my blog. It just that my life it's kinda boring and complicated. Anyway i have graduated from high school so I'M FREE haha. While waiting for college i working with my brother in-law at his boutique. I worked as a cashier. It's not much things to do but i can live with that. Anyway now I'm a big fans of Korean so everything i wanna do it has to involved some Korean. I know it's kinda ridiculous but i manage it. So i really want to be part of Korea like being a group singer at Korea. It's kinda impossible when you think about it but I'm gonna give it a shot. I told my friend about it and my friend help my find some audition application and she found one. It's a JYP online audition. I'm still thinking about it want to apply or not but I'm kinda scared if i don't have the caterer of being their singer. I asked my dad for some advice and he said if you scared you wouldn't achieve what you want of course you fail but that just only temporary if you try hard enough someday you will success. I was thinking about it really long and my dad was right if i don't try it how will i know. So I've decided to have the audition. I will pray so God will help me on this. Amin!!